This is a memoir about a mother's love for her son, Louis. It is addressed to him. It combines the spare prose of a Drabble novel with the emotional impact of The Last Act of Love.

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'A searingly honest depiction of raising a disabled child . . . Intimate, sometimes heartbreaking and often funny, this letter of love is essential reading.' Mail on Sunday

'It's so good - a beautiful piece of writing that really did have me gripped from the first page. What an achievement.' Cathy Rentenbrink, bestselling author of The Last Act of Love

'Heartbreaking . . . beautifully written . . . in equal measure, admirable, uplifting, terrifying.' Louise Doughty, Observer

This is a memoir about hope - hope in others, hope in systems, and hope for the future.

I've never quite known where to begin when someone asks me what I've been up to. I've never quite known how to explain what our daily life is like. I wanted to write how it is in order to give others a greater understanding of disability and caring. And to be totally honest, I wanted to write something that would make people consider being Louis's friend.

So here is me introducing you: Louis, this is your story. Readers, this is my son.