When Cheryl Rice’s mother died unexpectedly, it launched her on a journey into the deepest parts of grief—and, ultimately, toward love and wholeness. This raw, poignant story will touch and inspire any woman who has been raised to be a pleaser and to rely on others for her sense of self-worth.

Where Have I Been All My Life? is a compelling memoir recounting one woman's journey through grief and a profound feeling of unworthiness to wholeness and healing. It begins with the chillingly sudden death of Rice's mother, and is followed by her foray into the center of mourning. With wisdom, grace, and humor, Rice recounts the grief games she plays in an effort to resurrect her mother; her efforts to get her therapist, who she falls desperately in love with, to run away with her; and the transformation of her husband from fantasy man to ordinary guy to superhero. In the process, she experiences aching revelations about her family and her past - and realizes what she must leave behind, and what she can carry forward with her.