Three starred reviews!

A “gut-wrenching and unforgettable” (Publishers Weekly, starred review) novel in verse about a boy struggling with guilt as his family reels from the fallout of his older brother’s extreme depression and tries to hold onto hope.

My brother’s not here.
My brother’s not here.
My brother’s not here.
And it’s all
because of
me.

Brooks loves and adores his older brother, Oliver. That’s why it was so hard—practically impossible, really—for him to have done what he did and told his parents about what Oliver wanted to do.

Now Oliver has been sent away. He’s miserable, and Brooks’s family is falling apart. His mom and dad are sad and scared, and it seems like nothing will ever be okay again. Maybe things would be better if Brooks had just kept his mouth shut. Can he and his family find the hope they need to keep going?

" Told with tension and excellent pace, this is a heart-wrenching tale about the most difficult kind of forgiveness: forgiving oneself." - --School Library Journal, Starred Review

"Themes of sacrifice, unconditional love, and identity resonate throughout this compassionate, accessible story." - --Booklist

"Approachable, nuanced, and deeply moving." - --Kirkus, Starred Review

"Throughout, affirming messages about love, forgiveness, and shifting interpersonal dynamics buoy this gut-wrenching and unforgettable story." - --Publisher's Weekly, Starred Review