A timely, moving and empowering coming-of-age novel about finding yourself and finding your place in the world.

"Thoughtful, complex and full of hope." Sophie Jo, author of Red Flags

Astrid is about to start her last year at high school. And her first.

When her dad loses his job, Astrid’s homeschooling comes to an end. Until now, she has lived within the confines of a tightly controlled, contracted world where there's no room for anything … except following her father’s rules and pretending that everything is normal.

As Astrid, and her mum, tentatively expand their world, they struggle to break free of their ingrained wariness and self-doubt. But with hope, new friends, and the strength of a promise, Astrid has a chance to find out what she wants, who she loves, and who she really is.

Winner of the inaugural Walker Books Manuscript Prize, this is a brilliantly written YA debut full of insight, humour and pathos, that deftly explores themes of coercive control and coming of age.

"Thoughtful, complex and full of hope, like being given access to the insides of a teenage girl's brain. An exploration of first friends and first loves, and – maybe most importantly – the first time of embracing rightful, powerful, transformative anger." - Sophie Jo, author of Red Flags